Restless Nights

749 spots

749 spots i have counted 

On the walls in my room,

Staring into the dim 

Moon lit room.
My mind is stirred

And my vision at times blurred

And yet sleep evades me.
I toss and turn

Starboard and Stern

And yet no dreams occur.
163 lines

163 lines I have counted

In the grain of my ceiling

Some big

 and some small

Yet I can’t fall,

Into a deep sleep.

These restless nights,

May turn my plights

Into my inner fights

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Slowly we Dance

We have sat for hours

Not a word’s been said,

Yet your embrace is what i crave

Even if our discussions are dead.
I slowly rise

And take your hand,

Yet you seem hesitant

Slow to take a stand.
“It’s fine.” I urge

And pull you close

Afraid to let you slip away.

As we slowly start to sway.
You relax into my arms

And we dance along

Slowly we dance into the night

Even if all doesnt seem right.

Crimson Tears

Scarred lines

Vivid signs

Trails of tears

I left behind.
Scarred signs,

These lines of mine,

Trails stretching

Longer and longer.
Crimson tears

Gather at my sides

My thoughts and heart collides

While I’m numb inside.
These crimson tears

Filled with my fears,

Trailing away

Till in darkness I stay.

A dollar,  a coin, a will

Drunk on pain

Dazed by thought

Thought of playin games

ended up doing naught

A golden coin

A silver mine

a treasure trove

A money grove

as many search

and few do find

success in writing

and have time to continue,

the will of the writer

the mind of an author,

the beauty of a poet

and the view of an artist,

all of them are one

with the exception of their trade,

but the fact remains standing

that their skill

and thought

leads to a work of art

etched into paper,

canvas, technology

for all to find

and all to read.

Do any of you have the will

the idea and skill set

to follow your dream and make it come true?

Middle of it all

Stepping out,

From this place,

Stepping from,

your embrace.

A world I see

Staring back

Straight at me

For an eternity.
The fleeting kiss

From the breeze.

The minor stop

Of my heart.
A world so big

Yet so small

A world so high 

Above it all.
I’m standing in the middle of it all

The hidden ark.

I’m standing in the middle of it all

In the middle of nature’s park.
I’m standing in the middle of it all

In the middle of nature’s park.

With my back against the world

Away from its cold embrace

Far away, from, its, gaze

Far away from a single trace.
And looking back

What I see

Is a new start

For you and me
In the middle of nature’s park

Standing next to you

We feel worlds apart

But I’d give you my heart

I’d give you my heart.
I’m standing in the middle of it all

In the middle of nature’s park

Feeling like we’re worlds apart

But I’d give you my heart

I’d give you my heart.

shot through

I’m  gonna be

(ah) 

Shot through the heart
I’m gonna be

(ah) 

Shot in the dark 
I’m gonna be

(ah) 

Torn apart and be strung

Around this town

If you dont let down
With these infernal

Crowns of thorn. 
I’m  gonna be

(ah) 

Shot through the heart
I’m gonna be

(ah) 

Shot in the dark 
I’m gonna be

(ah) 

Left standing here 

Riddled with fear 

And disappear 

From sight
Cause never… 

Will I be better… 

(ah)

Cause never…
I fight alone

Since you did me wrong

And everytime since i helped you out

You just stood and spat in my face

Calling me a disgrace. 
But look at me now

Look me in my eyes

And know that now

You crossed the line

And now I’m fine

Even thought that… 
I’m  gonna be

(ah) 

Shot through the heart
I’m gonna be

(ah) 

Shot in the dark 
I’ll be standing strong

And holding on.

To fight your wrong

And move on. 

I been wasted,

Mistreated

I’m not gonna leave it. 

I’m tired

Want quiet

Not your nonsical riot

Been crying

Looking for a way

Been trying

To figure out a way

To escape this hell

Ring your mortal bell

Set it a blazing

Get it hazing

Frustrating

Aggravating

Tired of the punishments I’m taking

No longer gonna be 

Berated

Serrated

Tired of living half scared

No longer acting brain dead

Gonna move ahead

On you ill tread

Cause I 
I’m  not gonna be

(ah) 

Shot through the heart

(no) 
I’m not gonna be

(ah) 

Shot in the dark 

(no) 
I’m raising my head

(ah) 

I wont retreat

Cause it ain’t gonna be 

MY DEFEAT. 

Can’t you see me? 

So, we all got our demons.”
our demons may differ slightly,

as I said, mines, a shadow,

A mystery that exists,

that few know.
You see him,

but few notice.

Like a ghost,

he vanishes at night

and as loyal as he is

returns by day.
“We all have our fears.”
Tears are strolling,

no longer controlling.

pain, loss, hatred, death.

all hurt the same,some less.
“We’re all lost.”
Trying to find

only to find it trying itself.

Our paths long lost

our roads seemingly gone.

we wander in search,

hoping to find our way back.
“Sorry for this suckish section. I think I should remove this book. It already hurts before I write here. Writing just reminds me of the pain…”
I walk away, the question still in the air.

“Do I stay Do I go?”